I am probably having the worst new year of my life. This is not what I have planned. In fact, what I had in mind was more of the otherwise. I planned to have a great celebration of life, my family and loved ones. But how could that possibly be? The one and only person I shared, trusted, and been with for 14 years is ending everything with me? I think that is unfair. Is this New Year just has to be a total beginning of a new life? I still believe we are good together and that ending all of these is insane. But what can I do if that’s what my love wants?

I have my own share of imperfections, and I probably had neglected the small things that count in a relationship. But I had been faithful all along. I never thought of being with someone else or sharing my life to someone I can meet in the future. I had my mind and heart fixed to just one person, and all I got is this. As if it is not enough, I am dying from hurt here and they (my darling and that f**king wacko) is having a good time together. How could anyone do that?

They have just met seen each other again last December 18 and now they feel like they are the only ones who have the right to be happy? What happened to respect? To delicadeza as the Spaniards would put it? Don’t they realize they had hurt someone so bad to be really happy? Don’t I deserve a little time to heal and at least for you my love to show me you also hurt for me? Or was I just a fool to give you too much credit? What pains me the most is that I know my love is not really in love with that creep but considers the lifetime security of a hefty bank account can make.