I think it is time I get this blog straight again. This is not supposed to be a personal blog, but what can I do? I am a sentimental fool. It is not too late, though. I got one topic in my mind that needs some light. Days ago, our family and the rest of the families in our community celebrated the three kings’ day. Going out in the city proves otherwise. There are not so many people who celebrate this day anymore. In fact, you wouldn’t see garlands and greetings in the malls. Does this mean humans have started to strip the history with what they can categorize as surpluses to the holidays?

My mom used to tell us the tale of the three kings’ day. It is the feast that looks back to humbling one’s self. These kings are……kings! Yet, they have visited a baby in the manger and offered gifts. That is really humbling. We celebrate it to remember that we have to be humble all the time. That we have to consider other people, to treat them well, and to respect them however poor or rich they are. This feast has to be celebrated because we are neighbor loving people and we will not let each other fall.

Yes, it is easier said than done. If we can’t celebrate this day, we tend to forget the moral of the story. I guess it is better to stay as a kid who can just always listen to what their parents has to say. To what they will read at nights as they croon you to sleep. Repeating tales and tales of goodness until you are asleep—but remembering the story when the day light comes peeping in the horizon.

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I am probably having the worst new year of my life. This is not what I have planned. In fact, what I had in mind was more of the otherwise. I planned to have a great celebration of life, my family and loved ones. But how could that possibly be? The one and only person I shared, trusted, and been with for 14 years is ending everything with me? I think that is unfair. Is this New Year just has to be a total beginning of a new life? I still believe we are good together and that ending all of these is insane. But what can I do if that’s what my love wants?

I have my own share of imperfections, and I probably had neglected the small things that count in a relationship. But I had been faithful all along. I never thought of being with someone else or sharing my life to someone I can meet in the future. I had my mind and heart fixed to just one person, and all I got is this. As if it is not enough, I am dying from hurt here and they (my darling and that f**king wacko) is having a good time together. How could anyone do that?

They have just met seen each other again last December 18 and now they feel like they are the only ones who have the right to be happy? What happened to respect? To delicadeza as the Spaniards would put it? Don’t they realize they had hurt someone so bad to be really happy? Don’t I deserve a little time to heal and at least for you my love to show me you also hurt for me? Or was I just a fool to give you too much credit? What pains me the most is that I know my love is not really in love with that creep but considers the lifetime security of a hefty bank account can make.

I know its Christmas and I am supposed to be really happy. But how can I after my darling for 14 years announced that it is all over for us? That someone else had come and given her an opportunity to make all things right for both of us. Why, was I wrong all along? I can’t figure it out. Why would anyone just break someone’s heart? That someone who had shared every moment of life, happy and sad? How could someone just come and break my heart in time for Christmas?

Frankly, I knew this is going to come but I have always believed in us. I thought we were invincible. I don’t believe any of my thoughts now. I don’t believe me. I don’t and I can’t believe anyone else now. I think the world is seriously funny and that some people are just sick in their minds!

To you my one and only love, you hurt me too much. I really can’t believe you can do this but whoa, I was wrong again. How could you hurt me this way? In fact, I should ask how you could have replaced me before you actually discard me. I have so many questions and I can’t get any answer. Really, how could anyone break someone’s heart saying they loved them but they just got to move on? What’s wrong with me? What’s wrong with you? What’s wrong with the world?

Isn’t it great to be working all year and finally earning a week or two of holiday vacation? We’ll, let’s just say that I’ve earned mine and I just thought that it is a good reason for a post. I’ve been packing up my things since day one of December and I am just too glad to finally be on my way! It’s going to be a two-week vacation and I am going to make the best time of my life from it. I’m going to throw a great Christmas and New Year’s party with the people I love the most in this life.

I’d take my mom and siblings out for a diner or lunch and ill cook for them on either the Christmas or New Year’s Eve. As for my nephews and nieces, I have already sent packages home loaded with toys and things I can pack for gifts. You see, I’ve been readying myself for the occasion for too long now. I’m not that excited, am I?

I’m also looking forward to see my best friend and spend days talking with her until we both run dry of words. I wanted to hear everything that has happened in her life lately and hopefully, she would want to hear mine as well.

I am also looking forward to our high school batch reunion, which modesty aside, I have made possible. I mean, I am in charged but not the money-ger. Fortunately, Manny Pacquiao’s trusted friend and trainer Buboy Fernandez is married to one of my classmates so she is going to finance the entire affair.

To everyone, I hope you are all looking forward to a great holiday his Christmas. Merry Christmas in advance and may we all have a great 2010!